tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-48753604417854410942024-03-04T21:57:16.287-08:00Sent from HeavenLosing a child is the nightmare that no one ever wants to go through. We have walked in those shoes though. We know it's hard, and that doesn't even begin to describe it. Every day can be a battle between choosing to smile or frown, laugh or cry, stay in bed or get up and do something. It's a never-ending journey. But you can make it, and we're here to help you do that.sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.comBlogger35125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-867670812474500802021-11-23T10:31:00.000-08:002021-11-23T10:31:48.490-08:00a brief review of 2020-21<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjzAjeyIjzUKVRvFRv94JwJlaJUy_YOdGkfrcchl46aJrzFnhE9MUg27P40cIppjI1R1eJv-yNIRhdiGaR0Xeu00SmYddohKHisMn4RUi1J_suGnAI4nFmuSYjT9TcmlGcAxCjKO-N9gTM/s1080/5yrsSFH.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="1080" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjzAjeyIjzUKVRvFRv94JwJlaJUy_YOdGkfrcchl46aJrzFnhE9MUg27P40cIppjI1R1eJv-yNIRhdiGaR0Xeu00SmYddohKHisMn4RUi1J_suGnAI4nFmuSYjT9TcmlGcAxCjKO-N9gTM/s320/5yrsSFH.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />First, I must start with a big THANK YOU to all our supporters, any way you support us is meaningful and helpful. Thank you for praying, giving, and sharing! Keep it up! Here are a few things of note from the past two years:<p></p><ul style="text-align: left;"><li>August 2021 marked FIVE years since Sent from Heaven started! Woo hoo!</li><li>In 2020, 22 care packages were delivered by mail or picked up by the requestor. This number was down from 51 in 2019, our highest number of packages in a year to date. This was expected considering the vast effects of the pandemic.</li><li>So far in 2021, 20 care packages have been delivered. </li><li>Three modified care packages were sent overseas to Asia, and I know at least one has arrived!</li><li>Financial support has remained steady, allowing us to continue sending care packages by mail when needed. However, the price to send a flat rate medium box has gone up again to $16.25!</li></ul><p><b><i> What can you do for us?</i></b></p><ul style="text-align: left;"><li>Pray for our reach and the grieving families. Pray these families would be able to see hope in the midst of their great pain.</li><li>Give financially. You can do this <a href="https://paypal.me/sentfromheavenca?country.x=US&locale.x=en_US" target="_blank">online</a> or by sending a check with "Sent from Heaven" in the memo to Sierra Baptist Church in Visalia. </li><li><span style="-moz-box-align: unset; -moz-box-direction: unset; -moz-box-flex: unset; -moz-box-ordinal-group: unset; -moz-box-orient: unset; -moz-box-pack: unset; -moz-float-edge: unset; -moz-force-broken-image-icon: unset; -moz-image-region: unset; -moz-orient: unset; -moz-osx-font-smoothing: unset; -moz-text-size-adjust: unset; -moz-user-focus: unset; -moz-user-input: unset; -moz-user-modify: unset; -moz-window-dragging: unset; -webkit-line-clamp: unset; -webkit-text-fill-color: unset; -webkit-text-stroke: unset; accent-color: unset; animation: unset; appearance: unset; aspect-ratio: unset; backface-visibility: unset; background-blend-mode: unset; background: unset; block-size: unset; border-block: unset; border-collapse: unset; border-end-end-radius: unset; border-end-start-radius: unset; 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If you'd like some of our business cards and/or postcards for passing out, we would love to get some to you.</li><li>If you're on Facebook, please navigate to our page and leave a review. <br /></li></ul><p>We hope you have a peaceful and blessed holiday season! <br /></p>sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-89987447585165285172019-11-08T16:22:00.003-08:002019-11-08T16:22:44.138-08:00It's been busy lately!The end of summer and beginning of fall has been a busy and blessed season for Sent from Heaven. In August we celebrated our THIRD birthday. I set up a table at a Women's Health Day in Visalia where 100s of women saw our table and talked to us. They even awarded us with the best decorated table, which was very sweet.<br />
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On the last Sunday of August we invited everyone in town to join us for coffee at Component Coffee Lab, and they had a better than average Sunday! They graciously donated 15% of the profits to us, totaling just over $500. I also hung out there for much of the day, allowing me to connect with tons of people, including a local midwife at the Visalia OBGYN office. We are beyond grateful for all that Component owners Jon, Greg, Mikayla, and Miguel have done for us! Go support them!<br />
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In September, the shirt Faith over Fear shirt orders came to us with a $55 donation! After totaling up all donations from August and September, we received around $1000! What a blessing for us! We were able to use that to restock the beautiful books and memorial jewelry we include in our care packages, as well as all the other smaller items. If you would ever like to donate specific items to us, you can shop our <a href="https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/1YH6VXXS0USTE/ref=nav_wishlist_lists_1?_encoding=UTF8&type=wishlist" target="_blank">Amazon Wish List</a>! All items from the list are sent directly to us so you don't have to go to the store or even get the items to us.<br />
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October was Child Loss Awareness Month in which we shared about on social media. We also attended the <a href="http://www.alol.us/candlelight-vigil.html" target="_blank">Legacy of Love Dinner and Memorial Candle Lighting</a>. This event is nicely done, free, and family-friendly. It happens near Oct. 15th each year, so plan to come next year if you can! <a href="http://www.alol.us/" target="_blank">Legacy of Love</a> is a local support group for moms and dads who lose a child during pregnancy or the first year of life. Also, on October 15th, we delivered our 100th care package! While we mourn the loss of so many children, we are grateful to be able to offer hope to all these families during a most difficult time.<br />
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<li><b>January</b>: We will launch a child loss support group in Hanford, CA that will meet monthly. If you know a place we can meet for free, please let us know!</li>
<li><b>Spring</b>: annual Always in Our Hearts silent auction. I think this is going to be a little different than the past two years. More details to come. We would love to include weekend getaways and tickets to amusement parks in the auction this year. If you know how we can get these, please contact us.</li>
<li><b>Becoming a stand-alone non-profit</b>: Currently we are a ministry of Sierra Baptist Church and this has been a great relationship but we don't want to take advantage of this either. To become a non-profit it costly and we need to <b>establish a board of directors.</b> This means we need a few people (4-5) who can commit to monthly meetings, volunteering as needed, and inputting ideas. CAN YOU DO THIS?? We would love to consider adding you to our circle of influence. </li>
<li>For now, we won't be sending out special emails but posting all information on the website, Facebook, and Instagram. We don't have the time or right person currently to help with emails and social media. However, we will try to add everyone who receives emails to our website subscriber list so you can still keep up with us.</li>
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Thank you, as always, for your prayers and support! Keep spreading the word! sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-45317334150582351342019-08-08T19:26:00.000-07:002019-08-08T19:26:11.497-07:00All the ways you can celebrate our THIRD birthday!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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We have a lot of options for you to help! Additionally, you can always shop our <a href="https://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/1YH6VXXS0USTE/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_ep_ws_qqR8zb6PMSQ7A" target="_blank">Amazon Wish List</a> or <a href="https://www.paypal.me/sentfromheavenca" target="_blank">make a donation</a> of any amount.<br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><i>Right Now...</i></b></span>You can shop online and a portion of the proceeds will be given to us!<br />
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Shop all sorts of skin care, body care, and make up (including LipSense) at <a href="https://senesite.senegence.com/XoxoJessica/" target="_blank">Jessica's Senegence shop</a>.<br />
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Order a FAITH over FEAR t-shirt in rosy pink or grey for $25, and $5 will be donated for each shirt ordered. <a href="http://www.sentfromheavenvisalia.com/2019/07/faith-over-fear-shirt-ordering.html" target="_blank">Fill out the order form on our website</a>. You can also see the designs on the order form.<br />
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Come in and get something anytime on Sunday, August 25th and they'll donate 15% of the sales to us! We would love to gather care package recipients around 2 PM. If you can't make it, we would love to hear from you about how the care package you received was meaningful to you. Please complete the <a href="https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSf1uQldgTiO7L5fN6UbK9VcXqfYnKwpUihTjpCRvV5oHyKAuw/viewform?usp=sf_link" target="_blank">Testimony Submission form</a> to tell a little of your story.<br />
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<i><b>Thank you for your ongoing support! We have reached 90 packages delivered!</b></i></div>
sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-21494987978053218632019-08-03T15:32:00.000-07:002019-08-03T15:32:53.220-07:00Faith Over Fear Shirt Ordering<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Sweet and Sassy Vinyl Creations in Tennessee is graciously supporting us by donating $5 to us for EVERY one of these shirts that's ordered during August!! Why August?? August is our birthday month, and we're turning THREE!!! Fill out the form below and Sweet and Sassy will you send you a PayPal bill shortly. These are made to order and will likely be shipped in September.<br />
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Wear these shirts to:<br />
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<li>Honor your child in heaven</li>
<li>Show solidarity with men and women who have lost a child</li>
<li>Support Sent from Heaven and families who have lost a child</li>
<li>Bring awareness to child loss (especially during the upcoming Child Loss Awareness Month in October) </li>
<li>Remind yourself and show the world that FAITH can overcome FEAR</li>
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We're looking for Sent from Heaven ambassadors! What's that? It's a simple commitment to spread the word about us and what we do. The people we reach are wholly dependent upon word-of-mouth referral. We don't advertise anywhere and we're still working on getting our information in local hospitals. So YOU are our best way to spread the word about us right now. <br />
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This could take many different forms, including but not limited to:<br />
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<li>Share our social media posts (super simple!)</li>
<li>Create an original post about us on your social media or blog</li>
<li>Give our cards to people you know</li>
<li>Bring it up in conversation with anyone you do business with like your hair stylist or barista. This could be as simple as, "Have you heard of the organization Sent from Heaven?" and then share what we do in a sentence or hand them our card.</li>
<li>Tell your pastors about us and our desire to partner with churches</li>
<li>Tell your OB, pediatrician, and general care doctor about us </li>
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You don't have to share in all of these ways; you can just choose what suits you. The point is just getting the word out. If you'd like to be an ambassador, fill out the short form below and we'll get a stack of our business cards to you with some basic information about the organization for anyone who has questions. You'll also get insider information about us and tips for sharing about what we do.<br />
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When I founded Sent from Heaven about 2.5 years ago, I really wasn't sure what would happen. Up to this point, we have created nearly 70 care packages! They were all FREE, too! I have been trying to expand our reach by getting in touch with churches and hospitals. Sometimes this has been profitable, but often it has not. But I think there are other ways to expand our reach, so here are some dreams for the future:<br />
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<li>Hire a social media guru (an intern or volunteer would be great!)</li>
<li>Create a board of directors that meets regularly and volunteers to help with what we're doing </li>
<li>Hold memorial services for families who have received baskets at least twice a year</li>
<li>Hold an annual couple's retreat for those who have lost a child</li>
<li>Learn more about the grieving process</li>
<li>Advocate for bereavement days at work after miscarriage </li>
<li>Open other Sent from Heaven chapters around the nation</li>
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Are you interested in any of this? Send me an email at sentfromheavenvisalia@gmail.com sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-80696543584536674012019-01-09T20:21:00.000-08:002019-01-10T14:18:45.437-08:00Always in Our Hearts Silent Auction 2019<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Join us for our annual Always in Our Hearts silent auction</div>
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This event was fantastic at Merryman Station last year, so we're holding it again there this year. The same fabulous band, led by my father-in-law Bruce Lamb will be playing again! We're also going to have plenty of finger foods and desserts available. Please come support us at our biggest event of the year, and bring your friends! Get your tickets below before they sell out! (Enter your name in the box above the "Buy Now" button and then click the button). You can also pay Amanda in-person for tickets before the event to ensure a spot for yourself.</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09340076752619185245noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-48977527653350194612018-09-24T16:38:00.002-07:002018-09-28T14:39:24.465-07:00What items can I give that will go in care packages?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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As you can see, no two care packages are exactly alike. Each one is assembled based on the grieving family's need. There are some staples for every basket though, so if you'd like to get items to go directly in a basket, here's what we need:<br />
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<li>Individually-wrapped and non-perishable snacks for adults and children that are more healthy</li>
<li>Boxes of tissue</li>
<li>Packages of pocket tissue</li>
<li>Meal gift cards of at least $25</li>
<li>Herbal (non-caffeinated) tea</li>
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You may also <a href="http://paypal.me/JaimeNydegger" target="_blank">purchase coloring book sets</a> for $10 each from my friend Jaime who's an Usborne representative. More info to come on this!</div>
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When the idea of this organization was formed we sat and brainstormed about items we would have wanted or did receive that we really appreciated. Many of these items are chosen particularly to help with the immediate grief. Other items are chosen to hopefully help families heal, like books about grief and memorial jewelry.</div>
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$25 purchases a journal, tissue, snacks, and more for a care package</div>
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$50 gifts jewelry for several grieving mamas</div>
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$100 sponsors our October Balloon Release for package recipients</div>
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$200 pays for marketing materials and supplies</div>
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$350 helps us reach our grieving community</div>
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$1,000 gives hope to many who need it</div>
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Approximately 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage. Many couples suffer this loss silently.<br />
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Depression, anxiety, and guilt often follow after the loss of a child. And who is there to help? We are.</div>
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Many marriages end in divorce after infant death. There's a lack of community and resources for them. We want to help change this.</div>
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In the next year, <b>Sent from Heaven desires to build a community with those who receive our care packages to help fill many of the needs described.</b> We have created an online community for these families and will be having regular events for them. They need to know they're not alone.<br />
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Whether you've lost a child or not, you can still participate in Child Loss Awareness Month every October. Here are some ideas of things you can do:<br />
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<li><b>Give.</b> Click the "Donate" button below to give a one-time or monthly donation. Each October we have had successful online fundraisers for Child Loss Awareness Month. If you'd like to give in honor of a child who isn't your own, please make a note of that and we'll contact you so we can send along a special note to the family of the child.</li>
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<li><b>Share our <a href="https://mailchi.mp/687753a002b3/sfhoct2018" target="_blank">2018 Child Loss Awareness campaign page </a></b>with friends and family via social media or email. (Click the page name to go there).</li>
<li><b>Reach out </b>to someone you know lost a child. Send a simple note saying, "I'm remembering the child you lost this month with you. I miss him, too."</li>
<li>Post on <b>social media</b> about Child Loss Awareness Month. Use the graphic we have here or any number of the ones we share on Facebook or Instagram.</li>
<li>Add a temporary Child Loss Awareness frame to your Facebook photo. Search for one on Google; they're easy to find, or look for one to be posted.</li>
<li>If you have lost a child, <b>share your story</b>, privately with a friend, or publicly. We're always looking for more stories to add to our website as resources for families who receive our packages. We don't want them to feel alone in their loss or the feelings they have.</li>
<li><b>Light a candle</b> from 7-8pm on October 15 to participate in the worldwide Wave of Light in remembrance of all the children gone too soon. And, be sure to let others know you're participating!</li>
<li><b>Attend</b> a child loss memorial service and/or invite a friend to one. </li>
<li><b>Wear</b> a pink and blue ribbon. Add one to your car.</li>
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Thank you for your support and consideration!</div>
sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-87988389722880175172018-09-02T20:48:00.000-07:002018-09-02T20:48:26.559-07:00Being Faithful through the StormI just finished working through a study on Paul's faithfulness to God when all seemed lost! As I worked through Beth Moore's questions about the Scripture, I felt it almost jumping off the page to share with this community.<br />
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The study focused on <b>Acts 27:1-28:10</b>. Let me summarize it for you: Paul was a prisoner setting sail on his way to Rome. It was getting close to winter. After switching ships, Paul could <b>see</b> that if they continued sailing the direction the captain wanted to go then they would face a difficult storm.<br />
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Paul was certainly right! For 14 days, the 276 crew members and passengers fought the strong "northeaster" storm. The crew didn't eat for the entirety of those days. But part way through this storm, an angel spoke to Paul, telling him to not be afraid for he and everyone on the ship would be saved. After giving everyone this news, Paul tells them, "'So keep up your courage, men, for I have faith in God that it will happen just as he told me'" (Acts 27:25). <b><i>Even though their chances looked bleak, Paul had faith in God. </i></b><br />
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After fighting for 14 days, the crew sees an island and runs the ship aground. The ship literally begins to fall apart after the pressure of the storm pummeling it for so long. Those who can swim, get to shore that way, and those who can't swim grab a piece of the ship and float to the beach. They are treated with "unusual kindness" by the natives who built a large fire for them. Later, they are welcomed into the island's chief official's home for several days.<br />
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Here are some truths about this Scripture from Beth Moore:<br />
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<li>Our feelings CANNOT be the basis of our faith. "One reason many people feel 'disappointed in God' is because they treated their feelings as fact" (166). God is unchanging and He loves us. That is what our faith must rest in.</li>
<li>Romans 10:17 says, "Faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ." Even though it appeared that many of all of the people on the ship with Paul would die, Paul listened to God's promise given it that moment. Additionally, Moore writes, "Paul also did not assume that every promise God had ever made in history would be applied to him in his moment of need. The Word of God overflows with many wonderful 'blanket' promises, continually true to all of us (i.e., He will never leave us; He will return for us; He will work things for our good), but many of God's promises are for particular times, situations, and people" (166).</li>
<li>God's deliverance for Paul and everyone on board the ship came from running it aground. "Deliverance doesn't always mean ease. It may be simple and painless, or, God's deliverance in your life may be one of the most excruciating things you ever experience...Difficulty does not necessarily mean disaster" (167).</li>
<li>"God has a place of kindness, warmth, and welcome. A place, where, once you have been faithful to who He is, He will show you what He can do" (167).</li>
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Friends, I hope you benefited from this. I understand the hurt, pain, and sorrow you face, but <b>God will deliver you! </b>Isn't that wonderful?! </div>
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All this reminds me of the lyrics from one of my favorite songs, "Hard Love" by needtobreathe:</div>
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Moore, Beth. <i>Living Beyond Yourself: Exploring the Fruit of the Spirit</i>. LifeWay Press: Nashville, TN. 2012.sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-81029594474058117222018-08-18T19:41:00.000-07:002018-08-18T19:41:16.066-07:00Two year celebration at Rubio's: Friday, 8/24/18<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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We're amazed at all that's been accomplished in just two years! Join us to celebrate with a fundraiser at Rubio's in Visalia near the Target on Mooney Blvd. at 5-8pm. Get the mobile flyer from our Facebook or Instagram story on the day of the event or use the one here on our website. This must be shown for us to get credit.<br />
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Two fun things happened this week. First, we received our shipment of two dozen signed copies of <i>Loved Baby </i>by Sarah Philpott!! We sold 12 candles in April for 12 books, but she doubled the donation! She is such an incredible blessing to our ministry.<br />
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You can learn all about her at <a href="http://allamericanmom.net/">allamericanmom.net</a><br />
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Second, we had a Blaze Pizza Party fundraiser. I think we had around two dozen or more people eat pizza to support us! We'll be receiving 20% of the proceeds from all those orders. You can see several photos of people from the event on our Facebook page. If you ate at Blaze for us and took a photo, we'd love to see it! Post it to your page and tag us.<br />
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If you missed that fundraiser, we're having the next one on our second anniversary, August 26th, at Rubio's. More info to come about that soon!sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-43417501588832968522018-03-30T20:27:00.001-07:002018-03-30T20:27:07.448-07:001 Candle: 1 Book Donated<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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We're so happy that <a href="https://family-tree-candle-company.myshopify.com/collections/spring-is-in-the-air" target="_blank">Family Tree Candles</a> and Sarah Philpott, author of <i>Loved Baby: 31 Devotions Helping You Grieve and Cherish Your Child After Pregnancy Loss</i>, are helping us out! <b>During the entire month of April</b>, one of Sarah's books will be donated for EACH candle purchased from Family Tree Candles! There are incredibly brave and special people behind both of these, so let me tell you a bit about them.<br />
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Sarah Philpott writes over at <a href="http://allamericanmom.net/">allamericanmom.net</a> about her life as a Christian, farmer's wife, and mom in the South. A few years ago she experienced two back-to-back devastating miscarriages and was coming up short when she looked for a book on it, so she decided to write one. Her chapters are short, simple, and concise ranging in subjects from what one deals with physically to the myriad of emotions and remembering our sweet babies. With help from other women, Sarah's book also touches on different types of losses: miscarriage, still birth, and ectopic pregnancy. Nearly all the proceeds from the books sales are spent getting more books into the hands of grieving women who need it. Check out the book "trailer" below to find out more.<br />
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Meg Whitley is the creator and owner of Family Tree Candles. She's from Tennessee and pours a little southern charm into each candle she makes. Her candles not only smell great, but they are pretty, too. They are hand-poured high-quality soy wax candles in glass jars with gingham ribbons tied around each one, nestled inside a stamped canvas bag--ready for gifting! Fragrances are also added naturally with essential oils.<br />
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For our book drive, you can <a href="https://family-tree-candle-company.myshopify.com/collections/candles-for-a-cause/products/the-loved-baby-candle" target="_blank">purchase a Loved Baby candle</a> which comes in their ever-popular pineapple sage scent. For each candle purchased, Meg is donating the profit from the candle to purchase books that will go directly into our care packages. We have already put this book into several packages and have had excellent feedback on it, so we're eager to get more!<br />
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If you don't want to purchase online, you can purchase a candle directly from us and we'll order it for you. Thank you for your support! And give Sarah and Meg your support, too! Go follow them on social media!sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-48940392648314828892018-02-04T16:49:00.001-08:002018-02-04T16:49:20.356-08:00Coming Together for AIOH 2018<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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In the fall, I (Amanda) started thinking about our annual fundraiser event: Always in Our Hearts. I considered what would be the same and different from last year. I dreamed of having it in a beautiful venue, but I didn't think we would be able to make that happen for a few years on our limited budget. I talked to my husband about my dream for event and a few others, and contacted Merryman Station in late November.<br />
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I knew about Merryman Station because the owner, Mandy Thomas, was in my Bible study group for a short time the year she and her husband purchased the building. I watched them renovate it for a couple years through Facebook and was impressed with the final result. Mandy had also shared with me her story of child loss, and I felt a kindred spirit with her through that.<br />
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When I thought about where I wanted to have our fundraiser eventually, I immediately wanted to have our fundraiser in this space to support Mandy and as a reflection of our ministry. Merryman Station has been part of the Central Valley for over 100 years; it's surrounded by orange groves and sits on the 198 in Exeter, just between the cities and the foothills. Inside and out, it's a rustic farmhouse haven. The wood and lighting make it cozy, but also reflect its age. Somewhat similarly, our organization stands for hope in the midst of turmoil. Those who have lost a child have suffered long and hard, and our loss never goes away; we just learn to live with it. On "the other side" of child loss and with Jesus Christ in my life, I know there is hope. <br />
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When I contacted Merryman Station, initially I was told that they were booked solid in January and February, but they would double-check their calendar to see if we could be squeezed in. After checking in with Mandy a couple more times in December, I was finally told right before Christmas that there were two openings for us to choose from in January! Incredible! And it would cost $1000 after our discount...WAN WAN WAN. We typically don't even have that much in our account, so I had no idea how we would pay for this venue, so I thought about it for a couple days.<br />
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In the meantime, I started visiting and emailing local businesses and artisans to ask for donations for the silent auction. Some people never responded to my emails, others said "we get asked for a lot of donations so we have to be selective," but several others jumped at the opportunity to support us! Those who responded were extremely generous, kind, and excited about what we do. They knew there was a need for our organization and desired to support it. Over a dozen people gave us donations and we ended up with around 25 quality items to auction. CJ Hopper Photography gave us a $200 voucher!! I was shocked! Who gives away $200 of profit?? Wow.<br />
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After a couple days consideration about how to pay for Merryman Station and if it was worth it, I came up with an idea. I went over to my auto repair shop to ask for a $500 donation. Why there? I knew the owners are Christian as they're major supporters of our local Christian radio station. I felt like they're generous people, so what was the worst that could happen? They'd say "no" and I would table my dream venue for another year. I got a meeting with the owner, Santos, for Jan. 4 which was just 22 days before our event was to take place. He fully supported what we were doing and completely understood why I wanted to have the event in a special venue. He readily agreed to a $500 donation and wanted to find other ways to help us. Amazing!<br />
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Immediately, we let everyone know when and where our event would be. It was going to be the beautiful dream I had! I couldn't believe it!! My father-in-law's band agreed to play for our event at no cost so we could have live music. A couple weeks before the event I was reading in the <i>Enjoy </i>magazine about Component Coffee Lab, based out of Visalia with a mobile coffee cart. I sent an email asking "How does this mobile coffee cart work for an event I'm hosting?" He sent me a price, and I said that we couldn't afford that this year but perhaps in the future. He then asked if it was for a private or public event. I told him it was for a fundraiser for my nonprofit organization. A few minutes later, one of the owners, Jonathan, wrote me back saying they would show up for no charge to us ANNNDD give us a percentage of that night's proceeds. I nearly fell over when I read this, you guys! Seriously! Who does this?? These people don't even know me! He read a little about us on our website and "felt compelled" to help as a father and a Christian.<br />
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Donations for the silent auction continued pouring in, even on the day of the event! A majority of the tickets we sold were in the days just before the event when I wasn't sure we were even going to have enough people present to bid on all the fabulous items I had collected. On the day of the event, everything came together perfectly. It was all organized and just as I had imagined. Driving up that night to the building, all fantastically lit up, I felt like the belle of the ball. I teared up a little and smiled with a full heart of joy and gladness. It was a most beautiful and fun evening celebrating what we have accomplished and hope to achieve. It was a marker for our future that lies ahead. Nearly $1200 was raised by the silent auction items alone, and many individual gifts of $50-$100 were given during the month by those who were unable to attend. Component Coffee Lab donated 80% of their profits from the evening! (Go support these guys, people! They're at the Farmer's Market every Saturday and have a shop downtown now.)<br />
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This event wouldn't have happened without my husband. He watched our kids several times so I could go do stuff to prepare for the event. He helped me think through it all and fully-supported me when I felt overwhelmed by all of it. I'm also so grateful for my co-founder, Aubin, who put up with my to-do lists and went shopping for everything. I love you both!<br />
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If you'd like to purchase a ticket, you can use the button below or contact us by email (sentfromheavenvisalia@gmail.com) and we'll send you an invoice for the number of tickets you want. Don't wait to RSVP! Tickets will go fast! <b><i>Whether you can or can't come, we'll also need dessert donations for our guests.</i></b> Thanks for your support!<br />
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sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-90790635681204506122017-11-15T20:42:00.001-08:002017-11-15T20:42:36.518-08:001 Year, 1-a-Week Journal Prompts for Bereaved Parents by Aubin<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
As a parent who has lost a child I know how hard it can be to work through that grief and pain. When my son Liam was born very sick in 2011, I needed an outlet and a way to remember the ups and downs of the NICU and the CDH journey. I found writing in a journal or even blogging helped me better than anything else. I could be completely honest in my journal without fear of judgment. Sometimes all I needed was to write down all my fears and worries to work past them. So why would my grief be any different? I decided to start actively working through my grief through journaling and wanted to share these prompts with you. If you use all of them, you'll have enough to write one journal entry for a whole year.<br />
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1) What would you like other people to know or do after someone loses a child?<br />
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2) Describe a time you told someone (who didn't already know) about your loss.<br />
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3) What has been confusing during your grief?<br />
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4) What has been surprising during your grief?<br />
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5) What have you been thankful for during your grief?<br />
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6) How did you choose your child's name?<br />
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7) What do you now find difficult to do that you didn't before you lost a child?<br />
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8) If I could tell my child something, I would say...<br />
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9) Some well-meaning but hurtful things people have said or done are...<br />
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10) What are some secondary losses from the loss of your child.<br />
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11) Try writing your child's story in 100 words or less.<br />
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12) What quote or scripture has been meaningful or comforting? Why?<br />
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13) Write a bucket list for yourself.<br />
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14) Plan something in honor of your child on a day that means something.<br />
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15) Write a letter to your child.<br />
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16) Write an acrostic poem using your child's name.<br />
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17) Make a list of goals for yourself that you hope to accomplish by a year from now or what you would like to be different in a year.<br />
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18) Create a word cloud, print it or paste it in your paper journal or on your blog. You can use Wordle or Tagxedo.<br />
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19) What have you learned about yourself through the loss of your child?<br />
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20) How do you feel different than you did before you lost your child?<br />
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21) Have your priorities changed since you lost your child?<br />
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22) Pick a common, well-meaning quote someone has said to you. Do you believe that it's true? Why or why not?<br />
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23) What do you do when you feel like you're the only one grieving?<br />
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24) Has your faith changed? How?<br />
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25) What are the ways of grieving you feel society expects of you because you are a man or woman? Do you break these "rules"?<br />
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26) Which ways of grieving seem to bring you and your partner closer? Further apart?<br />
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27) What is one of your favorite memories from your child's life, even if he/she only lived in the womb?<br />
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28) What would you like your friends and family to do to honor and remember your child?<br />
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29) Is there anything that happens or anything you do that makes you feel most connected to your child?<br />
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30) What song has been meaningful or comforting? Why?<br />
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31) Write a list of words that describe your child.<br />
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32) If you could keep only one memory of your child, what would it be?<br />
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33) When you're having a particularly hard day, week, etc, what do you wish others would understand?<br />
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34) What are the questions people asked that you appreciated?<br />
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35) How have your relationships changed since you lost your child?<br />
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36) Do you have any new fears or worries since you lost your child?<br />
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37) How has your response to grief been different from those closest to you?<br />
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38) What emotion has been the most overwhelming through your grief?<br />
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39) What unanswered questions do you have?<br />
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40) What things are you still able to find joy in?<br />
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41) "Grief ambushes" are times when you experience a flood of emotions at an unexpected time. Describe some of the grief ambushes you have experienced.<br />
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42) Do you think your grief will ever end? Why or why not?<br />
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43) Although the Bible shares specific details about heaven, our human understanding is limited. What do you wish you knew about heaven?<br />
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44) Identify your own ideas about how you as a man or woman are supposed to "handle" your grief. Are you following these ideas?<br />
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45) No one can imagine what it's like to lose a child until they have actually experienced it. Has anything about your grief journey been different than you imagined it would be?<br />
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46) Are you doing anything unhealthy in response to grief or are you tempted to?<br />
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47) If death is a natural process of life, why do you think so many people act uncomfortable talking about it and various aspects of grief?<br />
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48) Identify the physical, emotional, and spiritual needs you have right now.<br />
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49) Has anyone said anything that made you feel they were trying to rush you through your grief?<br />
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50) How can you use your grief journey to help others?<br />
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51) Is anger about the loss of your child a good or bad thing?<br />
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52) How has grief impacted you physically?<br />
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53) Name a flower than reminds you of your child.</div>
sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-84914635335450449572017-11-09T15:49:00.000-08:002018-07-01T21:03:06.747-07:00A peek into my journal<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<i>The following are unedited excerpts from my journal entries after my miscarriages. Some of these excerpts were prompted by a book I read called </i><a href="https://www.amazon.com/Hannahs-Hope-Infertility-Miscarriage-Adoption/dp/1576836541/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1510373998&sr=1-1&keywords=hannah%27s+hope&dpID=41URXDYp%252BoL&preST=_SY291_BO1,204,203,200_QL40_&dpSrc=srch" target="_blank">Hannah's Hope</a><i>, which I highly recommend for Christians who are struggling with miscarriage, infertility, or failed adoptions. We also have some <a href="http://www.sentfromheavenvisalia.com/2017/11/journaling-through-grief.html" target="_blank">other journal prompt ideas</a> for child loss parents.</i><br />
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<b>written Dec. 2, 2015</b><br />
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"It's been two weeks and a day since our precious baby Taylor departed this world to be with you, God. We spent several hours at a friend's house today. I was SO tired at the end. It took so much energy out of me. She's such a fun mom, and I'm not so much.<br />
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I still fear losing more babies but feel a little better about it today. I don't know if I can be excited about being pregnant though, and I feel bad for Joseph [my husband] for that."<br />
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<b>written Dec. 9. 2015</b><br />
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"It's been hard to be expected to live normally when I don't feel that way. I'm still deeply sad! Getting dressed, going to the bathroom, preparing food, and so many other things remind me [of the baby I lost]. I gained a few pounds while pregnant and now none of my pants fit well! ... All the impending waiting is making me crazy! Waiting for a period, then to take a test, then going to my OB, then the next appointment, and finding out the baby's gender"<br />
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<b>written March 29, 2016</b> (after my second miscarriage)<br />
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"Oh, how I feel strange telling others that I have one son who is already 3.5 years-old! I know the questions in their head as in my own when faced with similar info: Did she adopt? Is she pregnant? Does she want more kids? -- I want to tell them I have two kids in heaven also, gone too soon from my life. Perhaps someday I will tell others this but I'm not ready now. I just want to ball my eyes out now and be able to believe that we can bring another baby into this world.<br />
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<b>written March 30, 2016</b><br />
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"God, I want Philippians 4:6-7 to ring true for me, but it's difficult to do or feel any of those things! Don't be anxious?! Be thankful?! Know your peace?! How?! I want to get to these things, Lord. Show me Your way. I don't feel hope but only anxiety for the future."<br />
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<b>written April 5, 2016</b><br />
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"I have wondered if God took our babies because we tried to have too much control of it. Since we didn't trust God fully with the situation, he chose to take our babies. However, this is punishment for my control and selfish desires, which God doesn't do...<br />
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God, please help me to know when I'm emotionally healed from our losses. At this time I commit to trying to have another baby, no matter when it may be born. Children are a blessing that I need to accept when You are ready to give them."<br />
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<b>written April 9, 2016</b><br />
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"God, some days and times I feel depressed and other times I don't. I know you're working through these times. I'm feeling more at peace about the past but still restless for the future...Please lessen the despair and anguish. Amen."<br />
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<b>written April 12, 2016</b><br />
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"Help me, Lord, to store up my treasure in heaven instead of earth...I can't let my treasure rest in my family or my things. Help me live for You!"<br />
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<b>written May 4, 2016</b><br />
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"Mother's Day is fast approaching. I would have been very pregnant with Taylor or noticeably so with Aryn. I would have received a flower at church for being the soonest expectant mother. Now, I would rather not be there.<br />
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<b>written July 24, 2016</b><br />
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"Today my friends announced that they're expecting a baby. I'm thrilled for them but a flood of negative emotions came over me. I'm healthy, so why can't I keep a baby? How am I to remain faithful to God in this? I feel like an inadequate failure. My story in this isn't over, I know, and that scares me. What if it doesn't get better? I want to hold my babies. What if I lose another baby? I know that I'm not healed from this, but I don't know if I can keep waiting. Everyone else is having their third child while I sit awkwardly with one. One big blessing contained in my sweet son. I don't understand this <u>at all</u> but I know, God, that you can use it. Taylor would have been about a month old now, but I'm just left with empty arms, and a hurt heart."<br />
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<i>About a month after this last entry, I learned I was pregnant with our rainbow baby boy. I should have journaled through my pregnancy because I had a roller coaster of emotions throughout it! I hope you have found this enlightening or comforting. Select </i>Amanda's Story<i> from the menu to read my journey through child loss and life after loss.</i>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09340076752619185245noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-12471486235764471462017-11-09T15:35:00.008-08:002017-11-09T15:57:58.890-08:00Child Loss Memorial 2017October is child loss awareness month and this year we held our very first memorial service to remember our babies gone too soon.<br />
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We invited our guests to write the names of their angels on our chalk board, allowing us to see them and pray for each and every one of their parents.<br />
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Amanda spoke about Psalm 13, 40:1-2 and 23. John 3:16. It was a powerful message of hope.</div>
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Amanda also took the time to record her message and you can view it here:</div>
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We provided paper for our guests to write letters to their angels to attach to balloons we released.</div>
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It was a beautiful moment as we let them fly. Everyone took a moment to take in the scene and many of us teared up.</div>
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Amanda and I would like to thank everyone who came to support the families who have suffered the loss of a child. We also want to thank everyone for supporting our ministry and making it possible for us to help others through their pain. God has blessed us with the passion to share our stories and help others and paved a way for our work through each and every one of you. Thank you!</div>
<br />sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-23146057017485238282017-11-05T16:16:00.001-08:002017-11-09T10:45:56.912-08:00Journaling through grief<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjX4EjbzXjaWZyiwwNPsOK2oG2-oWqRAB4MjWfkzJZ-hp_HDXp9C19xTA_neCfRlZdluWs_4JOGwHBRhajLb3UGLWduVLCop9lGkuw0pP8rC3qd8eWtG1QQKwaBjUfpRuivPBnso7gXKZA/s1600/10+Miscarriage+Journal+Prompts.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="750" data-original-width="500" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjX4EjbzXjaWZyiwwNPsOK2oG2-oWqRAB4MjWfkzJZ-hp_HDXp9C19xTA_neCfRlZdluWs_4JOGwHBRhajLb3UGLWduVLCop9lGkuw0pP8rC3qd8eWtG1QQKwaBjUfpRuivPBnso7gXKZA/s320/10+Miscarriage+Journal+Prompts.jpg" width="213" /></a>My journal is like my best friend who keeps all my secrets, always listens to me, and never offers strange advice. As I write in my best friend (AKA: my journal), my negative feelings slowly begin to fade. Sometimes I find myself writing things that I didn't even know I was thinking or feeling. Often I end up in a puddle of tears while trying to scratch out the final words of an entry. Pen and paper can bring feelings to the surface which I didn't even know were there--and sometimes those feelings are scary. But, at least I'm then aware of them and can deal with them.<br />
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Sometimes it's difficult to know where to start in your journaling though because you're completely overwhelmed by all the thoughts swirling around in your head, so here are some prompts to help you focus your journal writing.<br />
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There are 10 journaling prompts in the image created by <a href="http://iamfruitful.org/">IAmFruitful.org</a>, but they can be used for any type of child loss and other times of grieving:<br />
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<li>I feel God's presence most when...</li>
<li>Sometimes I feel guilty because...</li>
<li>I feel like I'm missing out on...</li>
<li>I feel angry because...</li>
<li>I'm grateful for...</li>
<li>I feel shame when...</li>
<li>A Scripture that's helping is...</li>
<li>God's showing me that He is...</li>
<li>The hardest time of day is...</li>
<li>I find the most hope when...</li>
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If you have experienced miscarriage, still birth, or early infant loss, then Sweet Julian's beautiful, free <a href="http://sweetjulian.ghost.io/baby-loss-journal-healing-one-broken-heart-at-a-time/" target="_blank">Baby Loss Journal PDF</a> is another good option for journal prompts. They're particularly helpful for writing your story. And if you do write your story, we would love to share it with our audience, so please contact us if you want to share it!</div>
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At my ten-week routine doctor’s appointment for the pregnancy, which in this case happened to be the one that consisted of a physical examination, the nurse practitioner made the determination that everything was going well to date and there were no concerns to report, as I expected. Body looked good, history was good, bloodwork looked fine, urine test revealed nothing, everything was in order. The final event for the appointment was to hear the heartbeat for the first time! She got out the Doppler fetal heart rate monitor to listen for baby’s heartbeat. After putting the warm gel on my belly and trying for a few minutes, she found a heartbeat! Quickly followed by a “Whoop. That’s yours. Not baby’s.” Before giving up less than a minute later, she told me not to worry about it. She told me that often the baby is still too little to hear the heartbeat at ten weeks old, and usually at 12 weeks there is more of a guarantee that you’ll be able to hear it. </div>
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My heart sank. In both of my other pregnancies, I’d heard heartbeats prior to 10 weeks. At this point, I mentioned the fact that I’d been somewhat concerned about the lack of morning sickness as this was so characteristic in my other two pregnancies and seemed strangely unusual for me. She took a brief glance at my history and then stated, “Maybe this time it’s your girl!” I smiled, as she wasn’t even close to the first person who had said that. But inside, I worried. My mommy heart knew that something wasn’t right. </div>
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The following week, at 11 weeks and 6 days, I found myself in the grocery store trying not to panic. I had a cart full of groceries and was nearing the front of the store to check out when I began bleeding. I literally stopped dead in my tracks, numb and paralyzed by disbelief that this was happening. I wanted to tell myself that everything was okay and this was normal. “It happens all the time, to many women, throughout various stages of pregnancy. It happened to me with the twins, and they are fantastic. They are healthy, happy, and now 14 months old. I’m fine. It will be fine.” </div>
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I rushed to the bathroom, leaving my cart filled with groceries right outside the door and thinking “Great. Just what I needed. A cart filled with groceries, much of it frozen, and now this disaster. I’m going to make a scene regardless of how I get out of here and what that entails.” To my dismay, I had already bled through my panties and some on to my shorts. In the excitement of pregnancy, one of the first things I (and I’m sure many other women as well) did was to rid my purse of all pads and tampons. Sort of like a mini early pregnancy celebration. “Screw you guys. Won’t be needing you for a while. I’m gonna have a baby! Ha!” At that exact moment in the grocery store bathroom, blood on my hands and pants, I greatly regretted that decision. </div>
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As I walked toward the emergency room about an hour later, calmly processing my thoughts and trying not to let my mind race, my heart began beating faster and faster. It became less and less possible to control my racing mind and keep myself from being mentally paralyzed; numb after succumbing to all the fears that were fast tracking through my thoughts all at once in a flurry. Everything in me wanted to turn around. “Go back to the car and go home. If I go home, pretend everything is normal, get in bed with my husband and go to sleep, when I wake up tomorrow everything will be fine. This will all just go away. It can’t really be happening.” </div>
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I had kept myself relatively calm over the last hour as I made preparations to go to the emergency room, but as I walked through the glass double doors, I felt myself start to disintegrate. I knew if I said it out loud, somebody else would know, and the weight of it would hit me like a ton of bricks and suddenly be real. I stopped at the triage desk, took a couple of deep breaths, and forced the words out. “I’m 12 weeks pregnant. And I’m bleeding.” There. I said it. It’s out now. It’s real. We have to handle this. I’m here and they’re going to tell me what is going on. </div>
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They got me in rather quickly, which is saying something for an emergency room. They drew blood, took a urine sample, and shortly thereafter called me back for an ultrasound. They came to get me in a wheelchair, and then forced me to sit in it. Little by little, they were crumbling the picture of perfection that I had in my mind. There is nothing wrong with me. I don’t want to sit in a wheelchair. “It’s just a precaution; just relax and I’ll push you,” the nurse calmly told me as she smiled. I already had to say out loud that I’m bleeding. And now I’m riding past everybody in a wheelchair. I felt like all the faces staring at me already knew what I didn’t want to know or admit. </div>
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After the ultrasound, they put me in a room and shut the door. My heart started to sink, little by little. I didn’t even want to know what the results were. As my mind raced through all the possible options, my body wanted to get up and leave, as panic again overtook me. Just go home. Leave. It doesn’t matter what they say. Everything is going to be fine. Nothing could have prepared my mommy heart for the ultimate reality of what was about to happen. </div>
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The “provider” came in and introduced herself. She then proceeded calmly, as if she was sharing with somebody what she had eaten for breakfast that morning, “So, there was no cardiac activity detected during the ultrasound. And you’re 12 weeks pregnant according to our calculations, but the baby is only measuring 9 weeks. So it looks like the baby passed away about 3 weeks ago and your body is just now realizing it and trying to catch up. It should pass on its own no problem, now that the process has started, but if it doesn’t we will remove it in 5 days.” </div>
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Do you remember that feeling from grade school, after falling from the monkey bars? Even though it’s not that big of a deal to get the wind knocked out of you, which you don’t find out until later, you’re certain for a few seconds that you must be dying. Blurred vision, no breath, impossible to breathe, back hurts. That’s what it felt like. I couldn’t move. She trailed off with “Do you have any questions?” I calmly answered “No” while in my mind I pictured myself screaming at her; “What the hell are you talking about??? What is wrong with you? Why would you say that?? How can you stand there and talk about this like it’s nothing?” I left the emergency room numb; in complete disbelief about what had just happened, but to the best of my ability letting my new reality slowly sink in. </div>
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That moment was the start of twelve long and excruciating weeks of miscarriage. It’s bad enough that it snuck up on me; like a spider. Those creepy jumping ones; you feel like they’re looking at you and can take direct aim before they jump, landing right on your face or wherever else they so desire – all the while paralyzing you. But then, as if that wasn’t enough, it took twelve weeks to go away. My body had failed me, and my baby, and I had twelve weeks of constant reminder as the process slowly completed and things resumed to “normal” ….. whatever that meant after surviving miscarriage. </div>
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Miscarriage is for some reason one of those cultural taboos that people are ashamed of. We don’t talk about it for fear of being judged. We don’t really bring it up often or mention it, for fear of people “knowing” what happened. The FACT is that miscarriage hurts. There’s nothing I could have done to prevent it, or change it, or make it better. It wasn’t my fault. It was just one of those things that happens. We will never know the “why”. But even if we did, it still wouldn’t change anything. It happened. It hurt. Not just emotionally, but physically as well. It took a long time to process. I felt trapped inside my own body, and I wanted to get out. I needed some alone time to be separated from me, but there I was every day when I looked in the mirror. </div>
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It’s hard to understand and even harder to explain. I’m so in love with that baby. I will forever miss that baby. A little piece of my heart died with that baby. Yet, I never even met that baby. Nobody can understand what it’s like to be in love with a stranger, unless they’ve been through it themselves. Here’s what I know for sure. You’ll need help. TALK about it. Share about it. Write about it. Cry about it. Scream about it. You need friends, family, strangers, church, support groups, grief counseling. You need some of it; you may need all of it. Together we are stronger. It’s okay to cry and it’s definitely okay to let others cry with you. Ignore the people who say the things that seem senseless or insensitive. They simply don’t know what to say, and they’re doing the best they can. </div>
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Ask questions. Even the ones that seem like nobody would want to be asked. Ask about the process. Ask if what your body is doing is normal. Don’t be embarrassed. Reach out to others who have had a miscarriage. And most of all, hang in there. Love yourself and your body for how hard it tried. Lean on your faith. If you’ve lost faith, find someone who still has it… or who can look back on a miscarriage with faith intact and know why it’s okay, even if it doesn’t make sense. It’s hard, but you’ll make it. </div>
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Our rainbow boy came one year and eleven days after my miscarriage. As beautiful as he is, and thankful as I am, it doesn’t change anything about the miscarriage. It’s not any easier to miss that baby, or wonder about that baby, or remember what I endured emotionally or physically. But it reminds me that God is faithful. He loves us. He wants good for us. He wants to bless us. He has a plan up His sleeve. I’m thankful that my heart knows miscarriage, so I can love on and cry with those whose hearts are now experiencing it. I am humbled by the minute understanding I have of what loss feels like, and my heart is forever changed in relating to those who endure numerous losses, or failed IVF cycles, or simply can’t get pregnant. </div>
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Miscarriage is ugly, but it’s real. It will be easier than it is right now, if you’re going through a miscarriage. It gets better than it feels right now. Keep the faith, keep the hope; stay surrounded by people who love and care for you. Do whatever helps you grieve. Find ways to remember your baby. You’ll make it out alive and stronger on the other side. Promise.<br />
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Read Vanessa's full story: <a href="https://www.books2read.com/u/3L9nv5" target="_blank">digital version</a> or <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Yesterday-was-Pregnant-Miscarriage-Happened/dp/1979322961/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1509927606&sr=8-1&keywords=yesterday+i+was+pregnant&dpID=51Sj-UUos6L&preST=_SY291_BO1,204,203,200_QL40_&dpSrc=srch" target="_blank">print version</a></div>
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Whether you've lost a child or not, you can still participate in Child Loss Awareness Month every October. Here are some ideas of things you can do:<br />
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<li>If you have lost a child, <b>share your story</b>, privately with a friend, or publicly. We're always looking for more stories to add to our website as resources for families who receive our packages. We don't want them to feel alone in their loss or the feelings they have.</li>
<li><b>Light a candle</b> from 7-8pm on October 15 to participate in the worldwide Wave of Light in remembrance of all the children gone too soon. And, be sure to let others know you're participating!</li>
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sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-29956503518975559302017-10-09T12:23:00.000-07:002017-10-29T11:59:10.841-07:00We were on the local radio station!One day in August, Aubin was on her way to Amanda's house to discuss upcoming things for Sent from Heaven when she heard them asking people to call in to talk about miscarriage. Coincidence? I think not! We listened for a few minutes, and then called the studio. We spoke to John McCollough of the Rob and John Show on Spirit 88.9 and he invited us to be guests on their show!! We had a wonderful time visiting with Rob and John, and are so grateful for the opportunity to share our ministry with listeners all over the Central Valley!<br />
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You can catch our full interview on their <a href="http://www.spirit889.com/058-brett-mccracken-sent-heaven/" target="_blank">website</a> or <a href="https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/058-brett-mccracken-and-sent-from-heaven/id970109416?i=1000392888435&mt=2" target="_blank">podcast</a>.<br />
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sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-75735599963798932432017-06-04T17:05:00.001-07:002017-06-04T17:05:08.255-07:00Amanda's Story Part III: The Arrival of Our Rainbow BabyBe sure to read <a href="http://www.sentfromheavenvisalia.com/2016/08/amanda-story.html" target="_blank">Part I</a> and <a href="http://www.sentfromheavenvisalia.com/2017/05/amandas-story-part-ii-pregnancy-after.html" target="_blank">Part II</a> of my story!<br />
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At 35 weeks and 5 days pregnant late on a Saturday afternoon I lost my mucus plug in two major portions. I read that it was likely I would have my baby within 48 hours since this wasn't my first pregnancy. Shocked, I called my husband and broke the news to him. Thankfully he was at Target, so I sent him the list of things we needed for our home birth. One of my friends was hanging out with me, and she wandered around the house with me while I frantically threw supplies in my laundry basket. Sometime that night I began having irregular contractions, so I didn't get good sleep.<br />
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The next morning we stayed home from church because I was still having contractions, and we didn't know what would happen. For the entire day, I recorded contractions with nothing to report. Sometimes they were 15 minutes apart and other times 4 minutes apart. They also didn't feel very intense. I kept in touch with my midwife but she didn't need to come yet. She called the pharmacy to try ordering medication to ease the contractions so I could rest, but it was too late by the time she called.<br />
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I had slept for about two hours Sunday night when I woke up at midnight feeling a lot of fluid coming out. It was mostly blood. Then when I sat on the toilet, a fist-sized clot came out. I had already called my midwife Chanah and she asked me to send a picture of what came out (lovely, huh?) since she didn't live around the corner. After seeing it, she started packing her things and preparing coffee to come down. After hanging up, I felt the baby move several times. Joseph and I thanked God for this but were both shaking furiously. After several minutes of breathing deeply and prayer, we were calmer and started watching TV.<br />
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Chanah arrived around 2am and told us there were three possibilities for the blood. She did some tests, felt the bag of water still in tact, and felt the baby's head. Her tests revealed that I just had a lot of bloody show, which is another thing that can happen before labor really begins (but can also occur during labor). However, it's usually not as much as I had. She called the other midwife planning to be at my labor, Rebekah, and began preparing her things for the birth. We were ecstatic and a bit shocked that the baby was already coming! I was 4 cm dilated and 100% effaced!<br />
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My contractions continued to be irregular all night though and we were all tired by morning. Joseph did go sleep for several hours while the midwives kept me company. The midwives each took a nap also, but I couldn't sleep. I tried to just rest, but I was the one having contractions, not them! I ate yogurt and some other snacks to keep up my energy. At 9am, Chanah called the pharmacy to try to get the medicine to ease my contractions again. Elijah was picked up by my in-laws and Joseph went to a chiropractic appointment. Rebekah left to get her car smogged, and Chanah went to get the medication for me. Before she left for the medication, I told her, "I think my contractions are coming more regularly now and they feel harder." She left to get the medication anyway.<br />
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I took the medication promptly and also took a shower to help me feel more chipper. Nearly an hour later, I was still feeling contractions. Chanah said that I was in active labor then because the medication would have worked if I wasn't. So everyone was called back. Joseph made some lunch when he got home. I ate some eggs. We all watched <i>The Great British Baking Show </i>together for a few hours. With each contraction, I leaned over and breathed calmly through it. As time went on though, I got back labor--terrible pain in my back with every contraction that eased slightly between each one. Chanah had a device that attached to my back to send slight electric shocks to it for easing the pain, and it certainly helped! My back still hurt, but it was much more bearable.<br />
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Around 2:45pm I told them I felt like I was ready to push, and we moved to the bedroom. I wanted to be there so I wouldn't have to move far to my bed after the birth. On my knees and leaning over the bed for support, I pushed through 5-6 contractions. To my surprise, I began yelling through each push, like when you're putting all your effort into something. I hadn't made a peep while delivering Elijah. Not long before delivery, I felt that intense "ring of fire" pain! Whoa, there's nothing else like that! And I said, "I feel like I'm gonna poop!" Chanah said, "No, you're gonna have a baby!" With the next contraction, Josiah was born! Joseph and the midwives got to see his little face as he slid right out into Rebekah's waiting arms. Immediately, the midwives prepared a spot for me to sit against the wall on the floor and handed Josiah over to me. He was perfect.<br />
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<br />sentfromheavenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251779118223204758noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4875360441785441094.post-57172390623061926812017-05-30T14:31:00.000-07:002017-06-04T17:05:51.948-07:00Amanda's Story Part II: Pregnancy After LossIt was late August, and I knew my period would start any day unless I was pregnant. On a whim, I decided to take a pregnancy test while my son was watching cartoons after lunch. It was positive, just barely! I knew it was very early. My husband was in the middle of teaching his class, so I called my midwife to share the good news. Then, I began to ponder how I would reveal the news to my husband. I didn't have this opportunity before because he was always nearby when I took pregnancy tests before. I put a note inside a bucket of peanuts that said, "We're expecting a little peanut in May 2017." However, I started bleeding within two hours of the positive test. My midwife ordered blood tests for the following week to see if my hormone levels were rising. Through tears, I told my husband what had happened and gave him the peanuts anyway. He kept my note as a sign of hope. One week later, after two blood draws, the results confirmed that I was still pregnant and I had stopped bleeding after a couple days. Apparently it was implantation bleeding. Our prayers and those of our family members and close friends were answered positively. With a smile on my face and fear in my heart, we proceeded.<br />
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At 7 weeks pregnant, the report from my weekly blood draw was significantly lower than the previous week, so we figured I was miscarrying. I cried and wondered "Why?!" I went to my old OB office for an ultrasound at the end of the day, and the baby was still alive! We were shocked, so shocked that I couldn't speak. We believe the lab reported incorrect numbers that week.<br />
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The next week, I switched labs. At 9 weeks pregnant, there was a minor drop in my levels, so we were concerned again. We once again got an ultrasound at the end of the day and it confirmed baby was still alive! My HcG levels had started dropping which can begin happening during week 8, though my midwives were surprised at how early this was happening.<br />
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During these early weeks I pleaded with God to not let our baby die before many years of life on this earth. I couldn't fathom another loss. I was afraid I would enter a deep depression. I moved forward each day with numb emotions about the pregnancy. I didn't want to get too excited, and I wasn't sure who to tell. I ended up telling just a couple friends so they would pray for me. I tried to focus on my son's schooling, as I had decided to start homeschooling him and he was at PreK level.<br />
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At 15 weeks pregnant, I started bleeding, a lot. I picked up Joseph early from work and we tried to find a place in town for me to get an ultrasound immediately. We couldn't find one and my bleeding was increasing, so we went to the ER. I was admitted immediately, and soon after had an ultrasound where we saw our live baby! We couldn't believe it! We couldn't understand how I could bleed so much and still be pregnant. Several hours later, the ER doctor pulled us back and explained that the bleeding was caused because my placenta is low, which is known as placenta previa. She said it likely would move, but if it didn't, I would have to have a C-section.<br />
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A few days after this my baby started moving! It was such a relief to feel him move while I continued to bleed through my healing. I spent about a month in bed and on the couch so the bleeding would stop. We continued to pray for the baby, and also for the placenta to move. I preferred to not have a C-section and had been planning a home birth.<br />
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I didn't take many pictures of my growing belly during this pregnancy. I felt like I would get too attached if I did that and then lost the baby. And I resented the quick growth of my belly if I was just going to lose the baby.<br />
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About three weeks after my ER visit, we had an appointment with a specialist. She said the placenta was no longer near the cervix but still low. I was given clearance to be more active, but nothing strenuous, like lifting heavy things or working out hard. We also learned we were having another boy! We were thrilled!<br />
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After this, my fear level kicked up into high gear. If I didn't feel the baby move for 20-30 minutes, I began to worry about him. I would poke at my belly or eat some sugar to spur his movement. I often would pray, too, that God would ease my fear by letting me feel him move. Several times a day I felt this fear. It was overwhelming my brain. I was feeling consumed by my fear. I shared this with my husband and closest friends, so they began to pray for this specifically. After a couple months, the level of my fear subsided. Through prayer and studying Scripture, God helped me trust in Him.<br />
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Two and half months after our first visit with the specialist we returned for a checkup, and the placenta had moved! I no longer had placenta previa, so I could lift my son again, as needed, and continue planning for a home birth!<br />
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Did you read Part I of my story? Read it here: <a href="http://www.sentfromheavenvisalia.com/2016/08/amanda-story.html" target="_blank">Amanda's Story of Loss</a><br />
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Read the final chapter of this story at <a href="http://www.sentfromheavenvisalia.com/2017/06/amandas-story-part-iii-arrival-of-our.html" target="_blank">Amanda's Story Part III: The Arrival of Our Rainbow Baby</a></div>
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